About Lisa Creager – Part 2
I will admit this….
All of my life, I must admit “I DO believe IN certain things that others say are untrue or conspiracy” UFO for instance…. (just a small tidbit) AND the Truth is out NOW! Just saying…..
I am also an individual who has ALWAYS wondered about everything.
Including, but not limited to, me remembering little to nothing in my life before 1st grade!
From ages 4-9 (approx) we (3 sisters) attended the Mormon church.
At the end of my first year in 1st grade at Englewood Elementary in Coos Bay, Oregon, I was held back for not reading as the others did. (I did not realize this though)
So when I attended my first day of 2nd grade, that very morning I was removed from my 2nd-grade classmates back into “a” 1st-grade classroom!
I DO REMEMBER that and nothing else. (I felt left behind, not good enough, less than smart, ignored, heartbroken, confused, lonely, and a wee bit angry).
As a child attending school, I really didn’t understand what was going on and why I was there, this feeling lasted until I was kicked out in 10th grade (for skipping)!
Each day was confusing, I didn’t ever get any explanation that would help me, with what I was to do.
What I mean is, I was told what to do but I DID NOT UNDERSTAND any of it.
I knew I was supposed to learn what they wanted me to but I didn’t understand how I was to do that! I just couldn’t grasp the complexity of any situation.
Now that I’m older I see it more clearly.
I realize now, I have a brain more unique than others…
IF I had had a private tutor, I could have understood.
I attended 1st through 4th grade at Englewood Elementary School.
My last year, they introduced budget cuts and a longer bus ride for me to attend Bunker Hill Elementary for my 5th and 6th-grade years.
Jr High was fun because of Home Ec and Photography!
Then as I arrived in high school I REALLY did not get ANY HELP with the work I was “required” to do.
I did NOT get A’s and B’s, I am very certain I received more D’s!
Then, FINALLY a lucky break!!
In 10th grade, I got kicked out for skipping class… It was my break to be free of school ticket!
I realize now in 2024 @ 60 years, I have a better ability to learn something IF I am totally interested in it AND IF I am “given” step-by-step instructions (with pictures)!!
Repeated prompts, if you will. Just ANY TYPE of help!!
I give FULL SUPPORT to my beautiful mother born in the 1940s.
She was a single Mom of three girls and my Mom, most days, worked 3 jobs!
I was somewhat maturing but unfortunately adding rebellion to it, most likely from being confused, so my choice of sneaking out the window was my demise!
The time had come for me, and at 16/17 years, I was lucky enough to move in with a family down the road, one block away!
One of the daughters was a very young mother (15 years old).
I realized, two years later when I became a Mom, I had learned quite a bit from living there. Mostly what not to do when it comes to taking care of a toddler!
Crazy life stuff for me was going on after leaving school UNTIL….. I got pregnant at 17. (being a teenage girl without adult supervision)
Then I BECAME A Mom @ 18 Years Old…………………
I had my first tiny beautiful baby girl at age 18, my FIRST TRUE LOVE.
I named her Rachel Lea she weighed in at 6lbs 14 oz, on March 30th, 1983, at Bay Area Hospital.
To be completely honest, I wasn’t scared.
Giving birth was absolutely the hardest, mind-blowing many hours I had never known that was to come, but after that, I wasn’t scared!
I signed up for welfare, food stamps, and low-income housing.
This help that I received afforded me 3 full years of being a stay-at-home mom.
HUGE blessing!
Get this reality…. ME, all the way from growing up not understanding my place in this world or how to navigate it, to growing into a FULL FLEDGED Mother as a teenager! Beyond crazy reality!!
During those three years staying at home, I was blessed and I found my footing as a parent!I got to learn, witness, and FEEL the deep miraculous joys of LOVE from a baby who adores and loves me without limit!!!
Mind you again, my beautiful mother, born in the 1940s, was a single Mom of three girls and most days worked 3 jobs….
She became a Mom at 16 years old, her short life as a child had been cut short by her family not being lovingly available for her as she grew up.
Right before my 3 year welfare cut-off notice came, my mom helped me process a Pell Grant to go to college.
You ARE NOT GOING TO BELIEVE THIS……. those first 3 months of learning what “”I CHOOSE TO LEARN””….. I got straight A’s, I was put on the Dean’s List and Honor Roll!! Hmmmm??!!!!
And then…… another HUGE change!!
I found out that I couldn’t go back to school full-time because my 3-year Welfare was over and I needed a full-time job.
After those three years at home with Rachel and my 3 months of college, it was required (by the State) I had to……to get a full-time job (single mom)!
So, I did, and would you know this if I hadn’t told you??!!
This is very interesting also….
I Got a Full-Time Job as a Manager of a convenience store……………..
A MANAGER of a convenience store!!
A MANAGER!
My stepdad knew the owner of a little convenience store in Englewood, Oregon called Englewood Market.
I worked there for 3 years. GET THIS!!!
Within a year and a half, my boss taught me EVERYTHING I needed to know about running this little store on my own!!
So he could go on vacation with his family and know his store is in good hands!!
I became the Manager and was on my own when he went on vacation, I RAN the store!!
From my uninteresting couldn’t learn anything during my schooling years to this…
Including payroll, hiring, and firing…..so beyond, right!!???!!
Hmmmm……and then…..
I Got Married and Started My Dream Life…………….
I met my husband Byron Dale Creager while working at the store in 1985, he was 11 years, 1 month, and 1 day older than me! (1111)
I was 21 and he was 32.
I quit working my job because I had my second child in 1988, AND oh my!!!
My one and only little baby boy, Cody Lloyd!!
There truly are no words to describe this masterpiece of LOVE!!
He IS (in my eyes) the most amazing young man you could ever meet and he is just like his Dad.
Caring, giving, and strong, tackles his fears and grows.
I feel he has a very strong footing in life.
You see, me having kids was NEVER anything I thought of.
As a matter of fact, growing up, I NEVER wondered what or where I’d be.
I didn’t know why I was here and even pondered who or why I WAS….
But, being married to a man that really truly loved me and owning a house in the mountains of Allegany, on the Millicoma River (Byron’s dream, fishing for salmon, hunting for venison, pretty much right out our backyard) and having children!
I was actually living a life I had never even thought about.
And I really enjoyed and loved my life, I had a purpose and it was filled with joy and love!!
Then it happened, I had one more baby!!
This one is uniquely special in her own right!!
In 1991 I gave birth to a feisty red-headed little girl!!!!
LOOK OUT!!! I mean, LOOK OUT!!!
She taught me another side of children, the feisty side and I loved every bit of it!!
Ashley Ann is in her 30’s now and we both have come to realize….
We are both so unique when it comes to our brains and how they work.
ADHD Diagnosis…………….
With how my brain worked or didn’t work and having my diagnosis at 36 and her in 4th grade of ADHD, was crazy!!
Ashley’s 4th grade teacher felt she needed to be seen for ADHD.
Just recently, I’ve realized my brain DID work for me during my happiest years but when my life fell apart, my brain would NOT WORK, it was like mashed potatoes.
Ashley’s life fell apart in 3rd grade with her father passing, the ADHD brain during trauma is beyond understanding (for us).
ALL OF MY KIDS WERE AFFECTED and still are!!
Every day of every year we miss Byron!!
In 2002 We Moved Away From Home and Unfortunately, Found Chaos
With Cody and Ashley being pulled out of their wonderful family life in Coos Bay (by me) after Byron passed into a whole new town, new school, new home, and into a life of living with a narcissist 24/7 (didn’t realize a narcissist existed until I learned that word in 2015)!
To top this off we moved to a populated town of 1,000 people compared to our home town of 20,000.
This small town, full of a whole new breed of people was an interesting turn of events (mostly just smartasses really)!
From complete bliss in their lives into total chaos.
Not a lot of really caring or loving people except the teachers, you could count on 8 out of 10 to support you.
I’ll say that in this little community, there were a LOT of bullies!!
The next 6 years were HORRIFYING, so I get Ashley’s troubles but Cody, he meshed really well!!!
I feel, because of the times we are in now……more people are coming out and speaking about their trauma and how their brains work!
People are sharing more about their experiences with bullies and their effects and I feel it’s important to bring our concerns out in the open, no one should ever suffer alone!
I too suffered so much pain, from a healthy, loving family into being controlled and manipulated for 6 years!
I was too scared to leave!
I know that sounds crazy but I LOST who I was.
Narcissists are MONSTERS (in MY opinion) and I realize they don’t see themselves as horrific people, so I offer some grace here.
This is where and how my money was sneakily but legally stolen!
I started this journey with a quarter of a million dollars ($250,000.00), money Byron worked his WHOLE LIFE for and was left for me and our children!
6 years later it had grown to a combined half a million dollars!
The day I left with Ashley, I walked out with $1,500.00 from my paycheck and most of that went to rent a house for $750.00.
This is when MY FEAR OF LIFE WITHOUT MONEY STARTED!!!
5 years later I was awarded $30,000.00.
I have NEVER received another penny from this situation.
Garth Brooks and Byron……………….
My husband Byron loved Garth Brooks and some of his songs spoke about what was on Byron’s heart while we were together!
This song Byron picked as one of our songs “Working on a Full House”! This song fits us to the tee!!
We lived out in the country, I was his little Queen of the South, and he was my hard-working man, no doubt!
He also told me Shameless was our song!
I’s like for you to look up the lyrics because they say EXACTLY who we were together.
After 20+ years….I KNOW how LUCKY I was!
The song Shameless…every wife wants to hear those words!!
This next song cements the fact that I now know all three are totally spirit driven messages to me, messages that fill me with joy and contentment until I pass on!
If Tomorrow Never Comes is the other one and it speaks about me remembering his love when he dies, it’s such a wonderful message to me because it actually happened, this song gives me peace and cements my knowing of our true LOVE!
Each song is HELD SO CLOSE TO MY HEART!!!
So, I thank God and Garth Brooks for co-creating songs of comfort that I would need to move forward with peace and love!
I hope you agree that certain songs are a hopeful message!
I am so grateful for YOU, and I thank YOU so much for reading this!
Truly and deeply I thank you!!
See you in the next post!!
If you’re still curious…. part 3 is next!
