About Lisa Creager Part 4
Heeelllloooo!!
I am doing a happy dance because I’m so grateful you’re here!!
Hey, let’s finish this up, shall we!!
Memorizing Scripture with My Kids
I had been memorizing scripture with my kids for a few years so that they could win their awards at Awana (Approved Workmen Are Not Ashamed); a child’s church setting every Wednesday night at Hauser Community Church.
I got the scripture below by asking Google what is the meaning of A.W.A.N.A. because I forgot!
2 Timothy 2:15 “Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does NOT need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth”
I then looked in the KJV and it says… “Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting to the hearers”.
My bible (The Student Bible: New International Version, the Holy Bible) says the same as the one I received from Google. Hmmmm…
From memorizing scripture to this
One day in preschool we carpooled to a farm and one Mom in particular that I desired to be friends with (never happened by the way) drove with me.
She came from a church that spoke “in tongue” and where you could be touched on the forehead and that act of God’s power drops you to the ground (being touched by the holy spirit, if I remember correctly).
For ME, that would be some pretty intense spiritual love to be a part of!
Just imagine during praise and worship, someone flowing in the energy of God’s healing power can and will come by and touch your head with their hand.
This mighty strength of healing LOVE is just emanating in and through their body and with being blessed with the gift of transferring that healing energy of God’s LOVE into someone else just by touching their head IS HUGE and that person, essentially passing out from the intensity that IS HUGE too!
I THINK it’s HUGE probably because I’m NOT used to it.
She was blessed with this particular happening.
My first thought was, she’s got to be all up in that, and memorized some scripture, desiring to understand more.
That’s my though process ….. But, no….. she hadn’t and didn’t. Okay…
I just thought everyone studied scripture!
She was also one of those parents that I had witnessed looking down at those she believed were not as high as her in spirituality.
With these experiences I was having “of others” it was becoming obvious, they didn’t jive at all with my own feelings on being a loving person as God intended.
My question was
How on earth did some of God’s children get “a memo” that some of God’s OTHER children…. are not good enough???
It wasn’t just her or that incident though, I was also witnessing on Sundays going to restaurants after church, and I watched and heard “church folks” be absolutely RUDE to the waitresses etc. WTFlip??????
I Wanted a Change
ALL of this was such a BIG deal for me; it made me realize that I did NOT want to be that type of Christian.
But……that is what we are “LABELED,” “called”, or “known as” in society. CHRISTIANS
So…..I made a secret choice to find another way. I kept it a secret because this could be a sensitive subject to some!
I began taking my kids to different churches so I could see how other “followers of God” related to life.
I found that everywhere we attended, some people were extremely loving and some, not so much, some in between.
I spent many months reading and comparing different scriptures from different Bibles. I even read a Scientology book (not sure which one) by L. Ron Hubbard, and I studied Mormon scripture.
It was very intriguing to connect certain beliefs and or scriptures that were similar.
I had done this in the 1990’s so I don’t remember what I discovered!
All of this studying left me with WAY more questions!!
But when you love God and your walk has shown you happiness and joy, for me, it NEVER truly leaves you.
Getting baptized was all I had left
I finally decided to have us try out this little church 3 miles from our home in Allegany, Oregon, the tiny little Allegany Church.
I chose to get baptized by Pastor Russ in 1996.
I literally had nowhere else to go with all of my studies.
I sat with the Pastor for over an hour and asked him many questions about life and God!
Unfortunately he could not answer fully so he did not quell my curiosity…..
I got baptized anyway.
It was all I had left to do and I was very proud of myself and I felt a certain knowing of peace within me.
We attended Allegany Church every Sunday until June of 1999 when we moved closer to town.
For some reason, my husband Byron came home one day in April/May of 1999 and had found a second home for us to purchase “in town” so we rented out our home, which was nearly paid off.
We purchased our new home “in town” and on the day school let out for summer that June of 1999, we were packing up and moving.
Terminal Diagnosis
Within a few months, Byron wasn’t feeling well, he had a few tests done and at this appointment his doctor gave us a “terminal diagnosis” of a lung disease!
Interstitial fibrosis was the name, it basically means some type of fiber got lodged in his lung(s) and caused so much scar tissue that the scar tissue was taking over.
The doctor gave him 6 to 8 years left to live his life.
Byron was the ONLY person in my life who I had spent my early 16 adult years with, the Father of our children, the man that grew with me, my best friend.
The ONE person who KNEW I was WEIRD and EMBRACED IT!!
The ONE person that I could ALWAYS count on!!
The ONE and only person who created my family with me!!
The ONE adult person who FIRST truly LOVED ME!!
Tragedy Struck
Six months later, Byron had passed.
Our lifeline, our rock, our everything, our Byron (the ONLY person in my life who accepted ALL OF ME, unconditionally) passed away and went back home to heaven in June of 2000.
Byron came from a Catholic background with 3 sisters and 2 (living) brothers.
He met me when I was working at Englewood Market and he was across the street at Harold’s Englewood Automotive.
Byron was 32 and I was 21, I was just coming out of my confused growing-up years and in my second year being a Mom now working a full-time job.
Byron taught me everything I know, except my Mom taught us girls how to clean and tidy up a home!
Byron was like that also, keeping things in their right places, cleaning up the kitchen after meals, etc.
He was an excellent Father and had no problem listening, understanding, and finding easy solutions anytime we needed family meetings to discuss any particular situations we found ourselves in.
Byron showed me that I can be weird and act how I act and still have a husband who thinks I’m from another planet but loves me unconditionally as my kids did!
Byron was always there when I needed him, ALWAYS!
Life has not been the same since, not even close, but I know he is ALWAYS with us in spirit, he has never left us!
I AM now grateful for all of this whirlwind of bizarre life situations.
I AM grateful for the emotional healing I have learned during these past few years with my understanding and integrating the energy of gratitude in my every day!
SEEING past the Pain-SEEING Footsteps
I just recently learned this life hack, slow down and allow myself to feel what I am feeling and being OKAY with it.
This little life hack gifted me with realizations of many things in my life today that have turned into absolute GOLD, through the puzzle pieces of time.
When we are ready to see why they were there, and how our life was shaped because of them.
We’re able to understand or at least get a grasp of the spiritual work being done in our life “behind the scenes” for our highest and greatest good.
I agree though, that when shit hits the fan, it’s absolute horror at times, NO DOUBT ABOUT IT!!!
When you’re ready to open your heart without ANY JUDGMENT upon yourself and are willing to grow in your understanding of who you are, you will look back and YOU WILL SEE the positive, life-altering, uplifting ways, you grew and prospered.
It IS there, you just need to “BE the LOVE” and “FEEL the LOVE” to understand it IS ALL LOVE and continue to GROW without judgment OR pressure (on yourself).
Life
I’ve heard this saying a lot these past 3 years.
Life isn’t happening to you, it is happening for you!!
And it’s “never” just YOU (even though that is what we believe because we cant see the unseen)!
It is YOU AND SPIRIT all the time!
Together FOREVER…. through LOVE!!
When you allow your awareness to include the absolute knowing that spirit “IS” working in and through you every moment!
You can and will co-create (manifest) (prayers answered) your desires into real life with a bit of practice through YOUR Faith! We will get more into that in soon.
Ready, willing, AND able…..
Spirit is ALWAYS here for YOU!!!!
ALWAYS! (please, don’t ever doubt this)
Hey, I am truly grateful for being able to explain some parts of my life here and especially, having you read it, as these 4 pages are just a SMALL GLIMPSE of what has happened in my life.
I want you to realize that saying… “there is light at the end of the tunnel” is true!
I intend to share my surprising life changes that have been weaved in and through my daily writing of gratitude and I’m hoping you will allow yourself the time to find your beginning of the easy life through these pages of love and understanding I’m sharing. I’m sharing here my personal truths, my personal faith!
One thing I realized, writing these few pages about me, I have been able to get a lot of history off my chest and off my heart onto paper.
It’s like the heavy is being lifted off my shoulders!
Thank you, God!! lol!
IN REALITY, this is a healing modality (journaling) writing it out and releasing it. I’m here for it and very grateful for these pages BUT most of ALL I AM grateful for your curiosity!
Thank you so much for spending your precious time reading some of my life stories, I deeply appreciate you!
I hope you will find moments to allow yourself to absorb and act upon what I am now sharing from what I have been learning and living these past few years, right here at Gratitude is the Secret.
The reality for every human is that we are all in this together which is awesome!!
May peace follow you wherever you go, every day!!
I am grateful that you are here because of gratitude!!
See you in the next post!! WooHoo
